Sunday, December 29, 2019

The Telestial Kingdom: The World Which You Now Reside

In multiple places we're reminded, including the lds endowment, or teachings of Joseph Smith that the world we now reside is the telestial kingdom. Book of Abraham tells us that there are different groups down here. Those being proved and those doing the proving. Because as LE Alma 13 states about the Holy Order on the account of their faith having CHOSEN good before the foundation of the world they showed good works thereby ordained to this higher order. These (or some of them) are they who codesendend or sacrifice to be here to elevate others. Some of these people are the "El". 

The Prophet Joseph Smith described the true nature of hell : “A man is his own [tormentor] and his own [condemnor]. Hence the saying, They shall go into the lake that burns with fire and brimstone. The torment of disappointment in the mind of man is as exquisite as a lake burning with fire and brimstone.” We torment ourselves with our own failures or unworthiness or being good enough or not being able to find comfort in God's word to you. 

Those who come here are subject to Satan's buffeting and his will. They are tormented, tempted, troubled, and then they die. While captive here, they endure the insults of the flesh and the difficulties of trying to find their way back to God. The references to the “hell that hath no end” is that same play on words that is defined in T&C 4:1–4. It is a place of torment, where people suffer as in the telestial kingdom (or the world in which you presently reside, to paraphrase the LDS Endowment). How long will people endure such an experience? Until they repent (see T&C 69:26). What if they do not repent? They will suffer, worlds without end (see T&C 69:28).

Even As The Days of Noah:
Our day will be even as the days of Noah. Wickedness will abound. Included in the “wicked” are those who are telestial and, therefore, cannot endure His presence. As the world transitions into a terrestrial (Millenium) the wicked will remain in the grave until that period is over and ressurection for telestial bodies occurs over a course of time. The war in heaven before we came here is similar to the war at the end of the Millennium when Satan is let loose for a short time. 

In 2017 God offered a covenant and in their concluding remarks some inspiring advice was given that shows how the end of the wicked progresses. 

"Those who have entered faithfully into the covenant this day are going to notice some things. The spirit of God is withdrawing from the world. Men are increasingly more angry without good cause. The hearts of men are waxing cold. There is increasing anger and resentment of gentiles. In political terms,it’s rejection of white privilege."

As God Spirit withdrawals the wicked will destroy the wicked. 

Love Casteth Off All Fear:
1 John 4:16-18

16 And we have known and believed the love that God hath to us. God is love; and he that dwelleth in love dwelleth in God, and God in him.
17 Herein is our love made perfect, that we may have boldness in the day of judgment: because as he is, so are we in this world.
18 There is no fear in love; but perfect love casteth out fear: because fear hath torment. He that feareth is not made perfect in love.

Redemption: (See Glossary term):
The God of the Telestial Kingdom (in which man is presently situated) is the holy ghost. The God of the Terrestrial Kingdom (which the Millennium will reflect) is Jesus Christ. The God of the Celestial Kingdom is God the Father (see T&C 69). The holy ghost brings man to Christ; Christ brings man to the Father, and the Father extends the promise of exaltation by making one a son or daughter of God. The plan of redemption brings men and women from their current, fallen state back to a state of awareness of their condition, and then by cleansing them, elevates them in light and truth. The primary God with whom men and women interact here in this world is the holy ghost.

Redemption causes the redeemed to work for the salvation of others. The reason some obtain the kind of redemption Nephi obtained (see 2 Nephi 15:2) is because they are of a character to work for the redemption of others. There is no reason to withhold the promise of eternal life from them, because others will be redeemed as a result of their redemption. They will labor, preach, teach, intercede, seek, pray, and work tirelessly to bring others to the tree of life. They become fellow-servants with Christ and labor alongside Him in the work of redeeming others

Sunday, December 15, 2019

God is Good: Life is a Training Ground

I'd say since being sick I've had a lot of compassion for others even before I was diagnosed I was having lots of sympathy for others trying to find God. Just overwhelming love for others and knowing all people, like myself, were Just trying to find God and please him. I think suffering had given me compassion for others not wanting them to suffer in any shape or form. Wanted to relieve their burdens. Were all in the same test of life and just because a man appears evil does not make them who they may appear when compared to our perceived understanding of God’s standards.

Nobody is going to get it perfectly and we shouldn't judge people even if their not where we think they should be. Because none of us are there yet. And if you have the truth than you should take that more seriously because you still fall short. It may not mean all men will be saved at this time but they will be added upon thus receiving what they came to receive and become more like God. We should show what the higher path looks like and that is charity for all men. Willing to sacrifice your own life for others. Charity and mortal love is not the same. We just don't know why others are in the position they are in. Be friends and love them.

Looking at my life nobody would of imagined me getting a terminal illness at age 31. It really shows me we should not procrastinate the day of our repentance or the time with our families. We're here to learn good from evil. I did have a lot of extra time with family due to new job, paternity leave for 3 months, and stay at home job which i'm forever grateful for.

It breaks my heart to hear my 5 year old making comments like. 'I don't want daddy to die", or ask if momma is going to have more kids than be like when she says no. It's because "daddy is going to die soon". 

So sad. So cute of the kids. I know the promises God has made regarding my children and it gives me hope that no matter what happens to me, my kids will gain from it and learn from it helping them come unto God. 

I think we were all a lot more eager and determined to do mortality right before we actually came into this world. I think mortality has far more actual and practical challenges than any of the theoretical beliefs we entertained about ourselves before we were clothed in flesh. We are our own judges, or our own tormentors. Now we find that we have to deal with all kinds of pains, insecurities, fatigue, appetites, desires, ambitions, pride and vanities that were easily dismissed as mere foolishness in our prior estate.
 
Whatever we do here, however, is going to “add upon” us--even if only in hindsight and by reflection after we have passed on. This experience is total immersion in a learning environment like nothing that can be experienced in a spirit world. 
 
Our worst failures improve us far more than our greatest successes. If we do not return bearing scars and injuries from living here then we have avoided much of what we were sent here to experience.

The allegory of Adam and Eve applies to us all. We all fall. We could have gained the experience of mortality without the fall and it wouldn't It have been so bad. But we can gain more in 5 minutes here (i believe joseph said something like this) than an entire lifetime in another world. In all the uncountable world’s by God none are as wicked as this world. It is the worst. We all choose to be here. In some sense everybody here are “heroes” in relation to choosing to come here and experience this. The thing to think about is that this world is the worst because of what the people here choose to do. It is not that God creates this world to be the worst. It's the only world where Satan is cast to. Where we fall under his temptations. The telestial world is given the attribute in D&c 76 “torment”. Inotherwards, suffering. It's what we do here. It's meant to help us grow and learn. Or others learn through us. It's absent from the terrestrial world description. Every human on this earth came by choice, not as a form of "punishment". That for whatever purposes of our own, we desired to come. Although some people are only quickened by a telestial glory and thus, this is all they could come to. I tend to believe that "hell" is more of a mental suffering than physical.

Monday, December 9, 2019

My ALS Journey: Life is not fair

I came across this from another ALS patient and felt it was good enough to adapt it into my own post. I haven't gotten to the point where I have lost all these functions yet but it's fast approaching. 

I certainly don't currently have this attitude most of the time but feel it's a good reminder. But my overall outlook is positive. Higher purpose is in all things we experience down in this world. 

Arms. Legs. Speech. 

You loose all of these to ALS. 
If only you could keep just ONE of these things. 

ARMS
If I still had use of the arms and hands there is so much that I could do! I could brush my teeth, feed myself, and scratch the itch on the top of my head. I could type without having to use my eyes, take pictures with my camera, and use my cell phone. Maybe I could even help to fold laundry. I could hug my family and friends. I could lift up my hands in worship.  

LEGS
If I still had use of my legs there is so much that I could do! I wouldn't need a power wheelchair. I could stand up, and get around the house with ease. I could get in and out of a car. I could go for a walk around the block. I could stroll along a beautiful, peaceful hiking trail. I could kneel down in prayer. 

SPEECH
If I still had use of my speech there is so much that I could do! Actually, I think that this will be the hardest for me to lose. It will take so much effort to say each word as it progresses. Most people cannot understand you most of the time. If I could still speak, then I could converse with friends. I could speak on the phone. I could talk and pray with my wife. I could teach and tell jokes to my kids. 

It would be so amazing just to have ONE of the things mentioned above. Why do I have to lose ALL of them? How do I deal with all of this? 
It isn't fair. 
It isn't fair! 
IT ISN'T FAIR!!! 
It isn't fair that... 
   -I have an amazing wife and children, but others live in families that are dysfunctional and abusive. 
   -I live in a safe place, but others live in war-torn countries surrounded by danger, violence, and death. 
   -To help me deal with ALS, I have or will eventually need a nice power wheelchair, an eye-gaze computer, a Trilogy breathing machine, a cough assist machine, PEG feeding tube when I'm unable to swallow, access to medications, and an amazing group of knowledgeable doctors, nurses and therapists, but others live with ALS in parts of the world where they have to suffer without any of these things. 

I. Am. Blessed.  

"For I have learned how to be content with whatever I have. I know how to live on almost nothing or with everything. I have learned the secret of living in every situation, whether it is with a full stomach or empty, with plenty or little. For I can do everything through Christ, who gives me strength." (Philippians 4:11-13)

Sunday, December 8, 2019

A Message to All: Part 9: My Living Will (Public)

Note: This series was inspired by my recent ALS diagnosis. See Part 1 intro. The conclusion to this series may or may not get posted. I'm leaving it open incase something comes to mind at a latter date if I'm still able. 

This will is an unofficial will because I know my wife will do what's best. It's meant to be more of a humorous post. And anything official should probably be private. Here are some things I would prefer but again my first priority is my wife and family and what would make their lives easier.

This may be a live document as I think of more things or add to it by editing it.

1) No crying at funeral allowed! (Joking 😁) 
2) Have a cheap funeral. Can bury me in a plywood box. Of course follow your heart too. That's always more important. Since I'm certain that won't happen. And beauty isn't a bad thing. Probably a better thing would be to have a real casket. I'm mostly joking about plywood and feel a proper burial is a better route. 
3) Have at least one member from my fellowship speak at my funeral. 
4) Be creative doesn't need to be all boring 😎😅 But also a time to grieve is good. 
5) Sing the song "a poor wayfaring man of grief" as it's one of my favorite about Christ. Verses 4-7 I've always liked too
6) Tell my kids I love them and my wife and they will conquer the world with or without me. #proud 
7) I prefer not to suffer needlessly. It's one of the curses of modern medicine. Especially if the only relief is constant 24/7 pain meds (like opiods or Morphine). 
8) Cocos movie should be the new slogan after a drive with my wife when first learning of diagnosis we heard it on pandora. "remember me though I have to say goodbye".
9) Part of creativity don't be quiet. Make it exciting like play some electronica music with Marshmellow lol. That's true reverence for me right there. Maybe for the viewing and or service. Shouting amen or other laughter energetic actions. 
10) I guess with our dogs old age we get to have a race to who dies sooner. 🐕🏃😎😁 A family joke of ours. Maybe it's time for me to finally loose, out living the dog. I told my wife it's time for me to be a looser. Now wife reminds me to 'Be a Looser'! Or better I'll be a winner and outlive them and hopefully the baby can walk before I loose my walking abilities. Another race worth winning! 
11) Must wear a t shirt and jeans to my funeral else kicked out 🤠🤠🤠 unless your a cowboy. In seriousness I want people to show up being themselves. Not dressing up due to cultural traditions or perceived standards. I want each person to be themselves, raw and unfiltered. What are you comfortable in? What do you wear on your days off? Just be you. God accepts us for who we are. 
12) I'd prefer that the Last speaker should be my wife. No concluding or residing remarks by others including one who is conducting or residing. Though I prefer a family member (including friends, siblings, parents, or wife) to reside or conduct it. Family is the only ones with authority in the home. 
13) Make an atmosphere that makes it so you never have to tell a child to be quiet, sit still, or stop being their true self. We're supposed to be as little children. Not making children be adults. Even if the speaker is harder to hear. Children is what brings us true joy in this life. They are the "joy in our works'. Its always been a desire for me for worshiping God but know it's hard to pay attention to speakers and want people to be able to as well. Something I've thought a lot about but don't really have answers either.
14) Tell alot of jokes 🐷🐿️
15) The graveyard down in Tucson looks overcrowded. People must be dying to get in there!